I Wish I Could Change

by Pastimes

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released November 13, 2015

Recorded at Bridge East Studios in East Bridgewater, MA
Mixed and mastered by John Dello Iacono
Drums and auxiliary percussion by Brian Cauti
Album artwork by Jake Carruthers



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Pastimes Danvers, Massachusetts

Emo/Punk band based out of Boston, Massachusetts

Pastimes is;

Adam Comer
Adam Spaziani
Chris Ponder
Jericho Grillo

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Track Name: Pushing Points
You said you wanted to talk but it's never talking it's pushing points
And dragging me out hasn't gotten you anything but a lost heart and an empty bed
I hope the new year brings you happiness
'Cause I know I can't
Track Name: Shelf Life
Been trying not to dig up the past
But that gets hard when that's the only place you want to be
Dwelling on youthful mistakes that I made
Sleepless nights and restless days

I'll stay handcuffed to this plagued house
As I stay and rot on this empty shelf
Where I've been sitting
Collecting dust and choking on debris
Track Name: I Hope You Know
I'm so sick, I'm feeding your apathetic appetite tonight
Even though I know I'm not as happy as I used to be
I know I'm playing with fire
But I don't have any burns yet
You said I need to be much stronger
I said that I can't hold the weight of the world and the burden
On these fragile bones

I hope you know that, I've given up on this
I hope you know that

I've always felt more at home
Away from you
And all of the bullshit you put me through
The baggage and dead weight
You carried back to me

Spit that poison through your crooked teeth
Haven't seen you in eight straight weeks
A dark room and a photograph is all I have left
My sympathy only runs so deep
Track Name: Lost Cause
I've got loneliness in these bones
And nothing to show
And I'm still feeling like a drone
On long drives home alone
Lately the only place I feel safe is under covers in your bed
But since I hardly see you I let my anxiety get the best of me

I don't want to know what you're up to or what you're doing
I just want to run away from here and start all over
I don't think you know me,I think it's over
We're holding on to a lost cause
You're my lost cause

Second best is something I can't settle for with you
I'm still trying to figure out what makes you happy
I can see that it's not me it's something in between
My lost heart and your empty bed

So just lay here with me one last time
I just want to feel your heartbeat next to me
So just lay here with me one last time
I wish I could change